Should or Shouldn't ?

*should I write this ?
  no you shouldn't. it's retarded.
  dude, it's a blog. it's like an internet diary.
  it's stupid and retarded. they wouldn't wanna read it anyway.
  let me just type this. I don't care if they and/or the others read it or not.




how should I start ? hmm.. let me think. oh well.


I dunno what happened but we seemed okay before. that what I thought. you can call me stupid, asshead, dumbfuck or anything you want can to think of to describe a stupid person. sometime before I did something wrong and it's whether I realize it or not, it doesn't matter. I know both of y'all hated me for some reason but it's better if you keep it to yourselves. I don't wanna know. go ahead and ignore me then. I know you think that it's the best that y'all can do know. you never cared 'bout me, my happiness, my depression etc. I may not be as good and/or perfect as the people you admired but that's just me. if you can't cope with it, the Earth has billions of people around you and anyone of them is better than me. I know. I'm don't mean too much to y'all but yeah, your life is easier without me around isn't it ? be honest. I was a disturbance to your life all this time. leave me be, let me die, don't even bother to come to my funeral and read the Ya'asin. no, I won't bother y'all again. I promise. don't be nice to me. show me all of your offences towards me. you can't judge me. only Allah S.W.T can. I'll pray for your happiness in this life and the next. I'll let y'all be happy when I get the feeling of committing suicide everyday. I'll pray for y'all to be happy with the guy of your dreams. I'll pray for y'all to spend your whole life with them when it's eating me from the inside. protecting you as if you were his life. let me die alone. I'll enjoy Hell as you expected me to while y'all enjoy Heaven. let my afterlife filled with hatred when yours filled with joy.

Assalamualaikum

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